Absolution (The Protectors # 1) by Sloane Kennedy

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The Protectors # 1
Sloane Kennedy
Gay Romance; Contemporary Romance;
Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
April 1st, 2016
audibook; e-book
356

But what I felt most was the perfection of what these two men were giving me. And I knew in that moment that I would do anything to keep it. Anything. --Cole

After four years abroad, artist Jonas Davenport has come home to start building his dream of owning his own art studio and gallery. But just as he's ready to put the darkness of his past behind him forever, it comes roaring back with a vengeance.

The only thing keeping ex-cop Mace Calhoun from eating his own gun after an unthinkable loss is his role in an underground syndicate that seeks to get justice for the innocent by taking the lives of the guilty. Ending the life of the young artist who committed unspeakable crimes against the most vulnerable of victims should have been the easiest thing in the world. So why can't he bring himself to pull the trigger?

After years of fighting in an endless, soul-sucking war, Navy SEAL Cole Bridgerton has come home to fight another battle - dealing with the discovery that the younger sister who ran away from home eight years earlier is lost to him forever. He needs answers and the only person who can give them to him is a young man struggling to put his life back together. But he never expected to feel something more for the haunted artist.

Cole and Mace. One lives by the rules, the other makes his own. One seeks justice through the law while the other seeks it with his gun. Two men, one light, one dark, will find themselves and each other when they're forced to stand side by side to protect Jonas from an unseen evil that will stop at nothing to silence the young artist forever.

But each man's scars run deep and even the strength of three may not be enough to save them...

Note: This book contains M/M/M sexual content and is intended for mature audiences.

This book ranks as my second favorite polyamory (menage) story behind Bound by Law by S.E. Jakes. It was one of the most angst filled books I’ve ever read and I loved it! Mace Calhoun was a hired mercenary with an assignment to take out Jonas Davenport, a gay pedophile who supposedly used his art to lure young artists and molest them. In the course of his surveillance, Mace began having doubts about Jonas’ culpability, so Mace began insinuating himself into Jonas’ life for more tangible proof of his crimes against little boys. Mace learned that Jonas was still recovering from the murder of his roommate, which he was an eyewitness too. Soon Mace and Jonas became attracted to each other. Just as their attraction was peaking, Mace’s plan was discovered by an ex-navy seal Cole Bridgerton, who was the older brother of Jonas’ murdered roommate.

When it was revealed that someone was after Jonas, Mace & Cole teamed up to protect Jonas and that’s when the three of them came to rely on each other. The three men had such baggage and were so emotionally damaged. It was a group of drowning men barely holding to each other to keep from drowning. It was an emotion plot, and I felt for all three equally. I really applaud this author for not making one character “more” important in the trio. Despite having different needs, I felt like Mace, Cole and Jonas were equally important members of their triad. Each person had chemistry with the other so any two of the trio could have been a hot couple. The author balanced them really well and thus I never saw them as anything but a threesome.

I wish the rest were available in audio because I would have gone right into the next book. It appears that there are at least 2 more books in this series so I am planning to read them as soon as I can.

About Sloane Kennedy

Although Sloane Kennedy always dreamed of being a writer as a teenager, she didn’t take the plunge until March of 2015 when she released her first novel as an independent author. Since then, she has released more than a dozen books including the Amazon best-selling “Barretti Security” series, “Finding” series and “Protectors” series. While she initially began writing M/F romance, she found her true passion writing gay romance and all four of her most recent releases reached the #1 spot on Amazon’s Gay Romance bestseller list and Freeing Zane, her final book in the Barretti Security series, made it to Amazon’s overall bestseller list. Sloane was born in Germany and grew up in Virginia and Wisconsin. Although she currently lives in Wisconsin, the place where she has always felt most at home is Seattle and many of her books take place in the Emerald city. Although she is unmarried, a menagerie of 2 dogs and 3 cats keeps her busy enough and 3 young nieces take care of the rest of her free time. Sloane loves being able to share her passion for romance with readers and she is truly humbled by all the support she’s received from fans and fellow authors alike.

Farm Fresh (Naked Organics #1) by Posy Roberts

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This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

ffFarm Fresh by Posy Roberts, Series: Naked Organics 
Release Date:  January 28, 2016
Pages: 204   • Published by: Labyrinth Bound Press   Format:  eARC
Purchase Link:  Amazon  

Jude Garrity visits the farmers market every Saturday. As an environmental engineering student, he’s curious about living off the grid and sustainable agriculture.

And one particular farmer.

Hudson Oliva has worked hard to support his commune, where queer people live without fear of harm or retribution. When Jude asks pointed questions about living there, Hudson realizes he needs to be honest about his home. Few people know what the farm is actually about, but Jude is insistent.

Jude moves to Kaleidoscope Gardens, however his sexual hang-ups make it hard to adjust. He’s an uptight virgin living among people who have sex freely and with multiple partners. When Jude finally loosens up, Hudson is flooded with emotions. Falling for Jude wasn’t part of Hudson’s life plan. But when vindictive rumors about the commune begin to spread, love might be all he has left.

four-stars

Posy Roberts rocks!!! I think she is one of the most realistic fiction authors out here. I don’t think I grasped the concept of the story until I was halfway through the book. It’s not subject that I’ve familiar with. I think it was taboo 10 years ago and I would have turned my nose at it. Presently, I’m okay with the social issues surrounding the story as well as the self love, and love among multiple partners in this story. I think people judge what they don’t know, or aren’t familiar with and I can understand the dialogue better in the story because of it. I swear reading gay romance these last 4 or 5 years have opened my eyes in ways I would have never thought of. The closes things I knew about gardening was my grandma making her grand kids dig her garden up every June, then planting the tomatoes, collard greens, bell peppers, blueberries, cucumbers, peppers. That’s all I knew, and I did that because I was made of it. I didn’t get in the organic fruits & vegetables until last really. I started going to the farmers market and learned so many things, so this book was a comfort seeing as how they go about producing quality ingredients for their customers.

The idea of me reading about a commune is ironic, seeing as a few weeks ago a friend and I were discussing things and her ideal dream was to do yoga, eat organic food, rescue dogs and live on a commune. Before she could explain it to me I looked it up. The first thing that popped in my mind was orgies and Mormons. Not together, but those were my thoughts. Fast forward to this moment, and I see why people would want to live on a commune. Take away the sex part, let’s talk about the peace that everyone has. Each one of these people are living their truth, and are extremely happy. They made me happy, because it was so much love and openness between everyone.

Jude & Hudson equally frustrated me at times. Both have horrendous past that they need to overcome. I still say need, because it’s not something that they have overcome. They are both dealing with religious zealots for parents. Hudson is still punishing himself for his actions. He has abandonment issues that could have caused Jude to never open up to him. Jude’s abuse at the hands of his parents make all the sense in the world by his actions. He’s wrapped up in his thoughts, and past that it takes him a long time to accept his sexuality. This story has alot of sweet parts too it, and the sexual parts were equally beautiful. I don’t think I’ve ever looked at sex their way, but I get it.

I didn’t want it to end, I wanted to know what happened next with Jude and his family. I wanted to see Leo counsel Hudson. I happy with what we got. They deserve each other and I was so happy to see them stop fighting themselves.

About Posy Roberts

Real life. Genuine men. True love.

Posy Roberts writes about the realistic struggles of men looking for love. Whether her characters are family men, drag queens, or lonely men searching for connections, they all find a home in her stories.

Posy is married to a man who makes sure she doesn’t forget to eat or sleep. Her daughter, a budding author and dedicated Whovian, helps her come up with character names. When Posy’s not writing, she enjoys crafting, hiking, and singing spontaneously about the mundane, just to make normal seem more interesting.

Backlash, (Don’t… #4) by Jack L. Pyke

27418455Backlash, (Don’t… #4) by Jack Pyke
Release Date: January 19, 2016
Pages: 357 • Published by: Fantastic Fiction Publishing  • Format: eBook
Purchase Links:  Fantastic FictionAmazon ARe 

In the aftermath of Jack Harrison’s release from the psychiatric unit, Gray Raoul’s first instinct is to take brutal revenge on the one responsible for financing Jack’s and Jan’s torturous psychological reconditioning. However, that person plays the game dangerously well, and knows exactly how to manipulate everyone in Gray’s life. To help negotiate this delicate situation, Gray contacts ex-Diadem Doms Trace and Gabriel Hunter. But the more Gray seems to regain control, the clearer it becomes that there’s something not quite right about Jan Richards. Jan quickly unravels, taking Jack and Gray with him, and bringing out one particularly deadly player. Gray is left with one last defense: break Jack down in order to partner up with his alter ego, Martin. But once freed, Martin has plans of his own, and he wants to make it personal with Gray. Complete trust between Master and sub, between Gray and Jack, will be tested to the absolute limit.

 

five-stars

How am I supposed to review this book when I can’t get my thoughts straight? When I can’t stop crying?

I thought I wanted Gray’s POV and I did, but oh it hurt me so much and you know what? It’s the best kind of hurt.

First, this book CAN NOT be read as a stand alone, it must be read with the series and in order.

That being said, this takes us into Gray’s head and all that this man is. All that he loves. All who he  holds close and all that he keeps inside. OMG! Gray just about killed me with his need to take care of those he loves and take care of those who hurt the ones he loves, but good lord, mukka… who will take care of you?

This series, it is gorgeous and brutal but I love being hurt by it. The triad of Jack, Gray and Jan is so beautiful and I love how their strengths are coming forward and presenting themselves as strongholds to this relationship. The respect these men have for one another, it’s exquisite.

Jan, he has taken on so much and we know he loves the bones off Jack and Gray but he has internalized so much from the rape and torture he and Jack endured. He’s not handling it well and the way he is handling it, shocked me. There were a few things that shocked me about Jan with this but none of it was bad. Just a shock and awe of the vanilla man with soft brown eyes and a sacred love for two kinky men.

Jack, he is trying so hard to deal – leaving the MC, handling Ed, wanting to be handled by Jack and being close again to his soft lad… you kill me, stunner over and over again. I don’t think… I can’t… I mean… Jack leaves me speechless. He really does and while he never got in his head with Backlash, we get so much of him and the lengths he will go to, the boundaries he will push for his loves. I know you don’t do casual Jack, but dammit, I need a hug.

Gray, yeah I still love the bastard and being inside his head was so overwhelmingly emotional. I cried so much through this book and I’m still crying as I attempt to write this. Gray, he does so much and he is so much to everyone but he needs help and that help, comes from across the pond with Trace, Gabe and Dare.

I admit to not reading Ms. Kelling’s series and properly meeting these three men, but I can assure you, that will soon be rectified. I adored Trace and the way he takes care of Gray even via text message. He is there for Gray and will drop everything to help him and then there is Gabe and Dare. OMG! Those two! I need their story STAT (trust that I broke my no book buying mandate and just bought Deliver Us) because, because… they are beautiful.

These books, this series and its mystery are so well done. Pyke knows how to tear you down, tear her characters down and build everyone back together. There is so much hurt and pain revealed in this, so many new WTAF? moments and there are still secrets that need to be told, but Jack, Gray and Jan, they just work together to make it. Just to make it and to be together.

I am an emotional reader and this book tore my heart out. It’s heavy, that’s a given with the series but there are some lighter moments that made me smile but the heart of this series, it really is the love and respect between Jack, Gray and Jan. Oh and holy hell are there some moments that sat me on my ass and made me sob at my desk while I read this. The endearments alone slowly gut me and my entrails are strewn across the room as I think about them as proof.

I have so many highlights that I could share in this review but after looking them over, they are mine right now and I am not ready to share them. I can’t. Sorry.

Now, the blurb does include Martin and I’m kinda digging him now. I mean, see him through Gray’s eyes and you get him, to a point. But all that happens with Martin, all that happens for Gray to nail the bastards that touched what’s his… it’s a roller coaster of intrigue and emotions that was amazing. Truly amazing and that end?

Sweet Saint Brigid!

I am scared to go on but that fear, it will be culled because I can’t leave my boys. I can’t.

I’ll be there. I promise.

 

About Jack L. Pyke

Jack blames her dark writing influences on living close to one of England’s finest forests. Having grown up hearing a history of kidnappings, murders, strange sightings, and sexual exploits her neck of the woods is renowned for, Jack takes that into her writing, having also learned that human coping strategies for intense situations can sometimes make the best of people have disastrously bad moments. Redeeming those flaws is Jack’s drive, and if that drive just happens to lead to sexual tension between two or more guys in a D/s relationship, Jack’s the first to let nature take its course.