Farm Fresh (Naked Organics #1) by Posy Roberts

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ffFarm Fresh by Posy Roberts, Series: Naked Organics 
Release Date:  January 28, 2016
Pages: 204   • Published by: Labyrinth Bound Press   Format:  eARC
Purchase Link:  Amazon  

Jude Garrity visits the farmers market every Saturday. As an environmental engineering student, he’s curious about living off the grid and sustainable agriculture.

And one particular farmer.

Hudson Oliva has worked hard to support his commune, where queer people live without fear of harm or retribution. When Jude asks pointed questions about living there, Hudson realizes he needs to be honest about his home. Few people know what the farm is actually about, but Jude is insistent.

Jude moves to Kaleidoscope Gardens, however his sexual hang-ups make it hard to adjust. He’s an uptight virgin living among people who have sex freely and with multiple partners. When Jude finally loosens up, Hudson is flooded with emotions. Falling for Jude wasn’t part of Hudson’s life plan. But when vindictive rumors about the commune begin to spread, love might be all he has left.

four-stars

Posy Roberts rocks!!! I think she is one of the most realistic fiction authors out here. I don’t think I grasped the concept of the story until I was halfway through the book. It’s not subject that I’ve familiar with. I think it was taboo 10 years ago and I would have turned my nose at it. Presently, I’m okay with the social issues surrounding the story as well as the self love, and love among multiple partners in this story. I think people judge what they don’t know, or aren’t familiar with and I can understand the dialogue better in the story because of it. I swear reading gay romance these last 4 or 5 years have opened my eyes in ways I would have never thought of. The closes things I knew about gardening was my grandma making her grand kids dig her garden up every June, then planting the tomatoes, collard greens, bell peppers, blueberries, cucumbers, peppers. That’s all I knew, and I did that because I was made of it. I didn’t get in the organic fruits & vegetables until last really. I started going to the farmers market and learned so many things, so this book was a comfort seeing as how they go about producing quality ingredients for their customers.

The idea of me reading about a commune is ironic, seeing as a few weeks ago a friend and I were discussing things and her ideal dream was to do yoga, eat organic food, rescue dogs and live on a commune. Before she could explain it to me I looked it up. The first thing that popped in my mind was orgies and Mormons. Not together, but those were my thoughts. Fast forward to this moment, and I see why people would want to live on a commune. Take away the sex part, let’s talk about the peace that everyone has. Each one of these people are living their truth, and are extremely happy. They made me happy, because it was so much love and openness between everyone.

Jude & Hudson equally frustrated me at times. Both have horrendous past that they need to overcome. I still say need, because it’s not something that they have overcome. They are both dealing with religious zealots for parents. Hudson is still punishing himself for his actions. He has abandonment issues that could have caused Jude to never open up to him. Jude’s abuse at the hands of his parents make all the sense in the world by his actions. He’s wrapped up in his thoughts, and past that it takes him a long time to accept his sexuality. This story has alot of sweet parts too it, and the sexual parts were equally beautiful. I don’t think I’ve ever looked at sex their way, but I get it.

I didn’t want it to end, I wanted to know what happened next with Jude and his family. I wanted to see Leo counsel Hudson. I happy with what we got. They deserve each other and I was so happy to see them stop fighting themselves.

About Posy Roberts

Real life. Genuine men. True love.

Posy Roberts writes about the realistic struggles of men looking for love. Whether her characters are family men, drag queens, or lonely men searching for connections, they all find a home in her stories.

Posy is married to a man who makes sure she doesn’t forget to eat or sleep. Her daughter, a budding author and dedicated Whovian, helps her come up with character names. When Posy’s not writing, she enjoys crafting, hiking, and singing spontaneously about the mundane, just to make normal seem more interesting.

Backlash, (Don’t… #4) by Jack L. Pyke

27418455Backlash, (Don’t… #4) by Jack Pyke
Release Date: January 19, 2016
Pages: 357 • Published by: Fantastic Fiction Publishing  • Format: eBook
Purchase Links:  Fantastic FictionAmazon ARe 

In the aftermath of Jack Harrison’s release from the psychiatric unit, Gray Raoul’s first instinct is to take brutal revenge on the one responsible for financing Jack’s and Jan’s torturous psychological reconditioning. However, that person plays the game dangerously well, and knows exactly how to manipulate everyone in Gray’s life. To help negotiate this delicate situation, Gray contacts ex-Diadem Doms Trace and Gabriel Hunter. But the more Gray seems to regain control, the clearer it becomes that there’s something not quite right about Jan Richards. Jan quickly unravels, taking Jack and Gray with him, and bringing out one particularly deadly player. Gray is left with one last defense: break Jack down in order to partner up with his alter ego, Martin. But once freed, Martin has plans of his own, and he wants to make it personal with Gray. Complete trust between Master and sub, between Gray and Jack, will be tested to the absolute limit.

 

five-stars

How am I supposed to review this book when I can’t get my thoughts straight? When I can’t stop crying?

I thought I wanted Gray’s POV and I did, but oh it hurt me so much and you know what? It’s the best kind of hurt.

First, this book CAN NOT be read as a stand alone, it must be read with the series and in order.

That being said, this takes us into Gray’s head and all that this man is. All that he loves. All who he  holds close and all that he keeps inside. OMG! Gray just about killed me with his need to take care of those he loves and take care of those who hurt the ones he loves, but good lord, mukka… who will take care of you?

This series, it is gorgeous and brutal but I love being hurt by it. The triad of Jack, Gray and Jan is so beautiful and I love how their strengths are coming forward and presenting themselves as strongholds to this relationship. The respect these men have for one another, it’s exquisite.

Jan, he has taken on so much and we know he loves the bones off Jack and Gray but he has internalized so much from the rape and torture he and Jack endured. He’s not handling it well and the way he is handling it, shocked me. There were a few things that shocked me about Jan with this but none of it was bad. Just a shock and awe of the vanilla man with soft brown eyes and a sacred love for two kinky men.

Jack, he is trying so hard to deal – leaving the MC, handling Ed, wanting to be handled by Jack and being close again to his soft lad… you kill me, stunner over and over again. I don’t think… I can’t… I mean… Jack leaves me speechless. He really does and while he never got in his head with Backlash, we get so much of him and the lengths he will go to, the boundaries he will push for his loves. I know you don’t do casual Jack, but dammit, I need a hug.

Gray, yeah I still love the bastard and being inside his head was so overwhelmingly emotional. I cried so much through this book and I’m still crying as I attempt to write this. Gray, he does so much and he is so much to everyone but he needs help and that help, comes from across the pond with Trace, Gabe and Dare.

I admit to not reading Ms. Kelling’s series and properly meeting these three men, but I can assure you, that will soon be rectified. I adored Trace and the way he takes care of Gray even via text message. He is there for Gray and will drop everything to help him and then there is Gabe and Dare. OMG! Those two! I need their story STAT (trust that I broke my no book buying mandate and just bought Deliver Us) because, because… they are beautiful.

These books, this series and its mystery are so well done. Pyke knows how to tear you down, tear her characters down and build everyone back together. There is so much hurt and pain revealed in this, so many new WTAF? moments and there are still secrets that need to be told, but Jack, Gray and Jan, they just work together to make it. Just to make it and to be together.

I am an emotional reader and this book tore my heart out. It’s heavy, that’s a given with the series but there are some lighter moments that made me smile but the heart of this series, it really is the love and respect between Jack, Gray and Jan. Oh and holy hell are there some moments that sat me on my ass and made me sob at my desk while I read this. The endearments alone slowly gut me and my entrails are strewn across the room as I think about them as proof.

I have so many highlights that I could share in this review but after looking them over, they are mine right now and I am not ready to share them. I can’t. Sorry.

Now, the blurb does include Martin and I’m kinda digging him now. I mean, see him through Gray’s eyes and you get him, to a point. But all that happens with Martin, all that happens for Gray to nail the bastards that touched what’s his… it’s a roller coaster of intrigue and emotions that was amazing. Truly amazing and that end?

Sweet Saint Brigid!

I am scared to go on but that fear, it will be culled because I can’t leave my boys. I can’t.

I’ll be there. I promise.

 

About Jack L. Pyke

Jack blames her dark writing influences on living close to one of England’s finest forests. Having grown up hearing a history of kidnappings, murders, strange sightings, and sexual exploits her neck of the woods is renowned for, Jack takes that into her writing, having also learned that human coping strategies for intense situations can sometimes make the best of people have disastrously bad moments. Redeeming those flaws is Jack’s drive, and if that drive just happens to lead to sexual tension between two or more guys in a D/s relationship, Jack’s the first to let nature take its course.