Foxes by Suki Fleet

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Foxes by Suki Fleet  26238271
Release Date: February 8, 2016
Pages: 274  • Published by: Dreamspinner Press Format: eARC
Purchase Links:  Dreamspinner •  Amazon • ARe

When Dashiel’s body is found dumped on an East London wasteland, his best friend Danny sets out to find the killer. But Danny finds interaction difficult and must keep his world small in order to survive. By day he lives in an abandoned swimming pool and fixes electrical devices to trade for supplies, but by night, alone, he hunts sharks—a reckless search for dangerous men who prey on the vulnerable.

A chance meeting with an American boy selling himself on the streets throws this lonely existence into disarray. Micky is troubled, fragile, and Danny feels a desperate need to protect him—from what, he doesn’t know. As Danny discovers more about Micky, he realizes that what Micky needs saving from is the one thing Danny can’t help him fight against.

To save Micky, Danny must risk expanding his world and face something that scares him more than any shark ever could: trusting he will be accepted for who he is. If a freezing winter on the streets, a sadistic doctor, and three thousand miles don’t tear them apart first, that is.

five-stars

 

Can’t lifetimes be measured in heartbeats? The faster a heart goes, the less time you have?

If the above is true, must be close to death then after reading this. I can’t stop my heart from beating so fast it hurts. It hurts. I hurt and yet the hurt is a complete comfort.

There is a theme with Suki’s books; the ever plentiful absence of parental figures, the absence of speech either voluntary or not and there is the over whelming theme of boys doing things for survival that most of us don’t think about. There is this void with her characters but it’s the fortitude of not giving up that makes the void fill and spill over with hope.

The big thing about Suki and her books is you get immersed in them. From the first word and a dip of your ill formed pinky toe, you think you are testing the waters of the world she creates, when in reality, you’ve already jumped in with both feet. You’ve jumped in and didn’t realize it until your chest becomes so tight because you haven’t come up for air. You’ve held your breath and let the gorgeous misty words fill your chest as you blissfully drown in the context of the story.

I want to tell you all about this story but I don’t know how to. It’s heartbreaking and hopeful. It’s angsty and amazing. This book, is everything and there are things I think I caught on to more because of myself or maybe because the author is like me?

Maybe she is like me because what I also loved is the sneaky way the author sneaks songs into the book. I guess, if you don’t know them you wouldn’t notice them but just like a song by The Smiths got tossed into TiNaLS, there are songs from The Cure in this that shredded my already stomped on heart. I mean, come on! If Only Tonight We Could Sleep and Pictures of You. Smith and Fleet as a duo of angst? One does not survive unscathed, I promise you.

If I had a single wish right now, it would be for someone to hold on to, or for someone to hold on to me. Not because they feel obliged to, or because they have to, but because they want to, because they want me.

Danny. What has happened to him? OMG. This kid, from the first page I wanted to hug and cuddle him until he gave in and hugged me back. I want to give Danny all the warmth, all the warm showers and flowers and food and a cool room to sleep deep under warm blankets. I want to give him a room full of things that need to be fixed, not because he needs them as trade but because it’s what he does. I want him to look at himself with as much want and love as he deserves and I want him to accept it. To accept that he is beautiful because of who he is and how he loves and protects those who matter… even when they ask why he doesn’t give up.

OMG! This book, it hurt me so damn good.

Micky, good lord this kid. I got him and his want to help people but inability to deal with it. I really get it because I am the same way. I get that it’s too much at times to just be yourself and deal with your own issues but taking on the issues of others, it’s crushing to the soul. But Micky is beautiful, sparkly and everything that a boy like Danny needs but what is going on with them? How will they make this new fragile thing called love work?

These boys. This story, it was amazing but it’s Suki Fleet so it’s what I expect. The layers of story and character are achingly peeled away until you are raw. You can’t help but feel what these characters go through as you read their story. This isn’t just story- it’s an entire universe of bright skies, of tumbling warm feelings and emotions so big, they can’t be contained to one continent. It’s so ridiculously gorgeous that I can’t tell you enough how much I loved reading it.

Fragile things, every single one of them. Lives are so terrifyingly easy to break. And yet, I love every single second. If I didn’t love it, it wouldn’t hurt so much.

Yeah… that.

 

About Suki Fleet

Suki Fleet grew up on a boat and as a small child spent a lot of time travelling at sea with her family. She has always wanted to be a writer. As a kid she told ghost stories to scare people, but stories about romance were the ones that inspired her to sit down and write. She doesn’t think she’ll ever stop writing them.

Her novel This is Not a Love Story won Best Gay Debut in the 2014 Rainbow Awards and is currently a finalist in the 2015 Lambda Awards.

You can contact Suki at sukifleet@gmail.com she’d love to hear from you.

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