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— You always want what you can’t have. —
David. Catholic. Gay. Set on keeping his purity ring.
Raja. Biker. Manwhore. Never refuses a bet.
David has always tried to be the best son his parents could dream of.
Always at church on Sunday.
Always eager to help with the garden.
Always trying his best at school.
Prim, proper, innocent, and kind.
But deep inside of him, there is a yearning planted by the devil himself, and when a cocky, foul-mouthed biker pulls him a step too far, David doesn’t fall into the abyss. He leaps.
Raja is all he’s ever dreamed of, yet didn’t dare voice. Older, dangerous, a wall of muscle with a grip so strong David can’t resist him no matter how hard he tries.
As a freshly appointed president of a motorcycle club on the verge of ruin, Raja has a lot to live up to. Being gay doesn’t do him any favors in terms of commanding the respect of his men. He has his way of compensating though.
Always first in a fight.
Always bragging about his sexual conquests.
Always up for a bet.
Daring, tattooed, sexy, and unapologetic.
After he boasts he can have any man he wants, he gets challenged to hook up with the preppy guy wallflowering at a party. Raja can’t wait to pop the innocent cutie’s cherry. But when he finds out the guy is his friend’s younger brother, life gets a whole lot messier.
Why is the one guy who should be off-limits always the most tempting?
Why is the one guy who should be off-limits always the most tempting?
This is not something I normally do, read a book in a numbered series out of order. My OCD doesn’t mesh well with things like that, I usually make myself read all the books before I get to the one I want to read. BUT, I took the authors word on good faith that this could be read as a stand alone and dove in because come on; a manwhore and a Catholic virgin? I’d be stupid not to take the opportunity.
From the first page I was hooked. I was hooked in Raja’s POV and all that he was as the new president of the Coffin Nails MC chapter in Toledo. I really liked Lucky and made notes to find out what his story was and from which book but when Raja sees a sweet thing across the room… a wallflower of a boy with eyes that promise pleasure…yeah, I was all in. BUT…then we get that boys POV and let me tell you, I bonded with David immediately and good lord. That first scene? I read that at my desk while at work and I am not innocent but that scene made me blush. It was hot AF and surprisingly emotional and tender.
What? Yeah, I know what you are thinking? Hey Ginger, are you sure you read a book in the Sex & Mayhem series with the boys from the Coffin Nails MC?? Yup, sure did and while this may be my first in the series, I am so not done with it. I think, for once, reading out of order has served me well.
But, back to the review at hand.
So, Raja is at his friend Hunter’s house to welcome his new baby boy into the world. Blade, one of the dudes in Raja’s MC is chatting up Raja about the sex and the gays and what not. To prove a point and to shut Blade up, Raja takes on a bet that he can get a blow job for anyone, including the wallflower across the room. UGH and OMG! Talk about a decision that will change your life. I am a huge sucker for the alpha male and Raja fits that role as perfect as his ass fits into his jeans. It’s natural for him to take control and sweet David is so repressed and confused that when Raja invades his space and starts directing their encounter, it was stupidly hot. I can’t even explain how hot it was.
This book was a ride of emotions that were so strong there were times I thought I was on a long run with a bunch of dudes on motorcycles. I was honestly amazed and overwhelmed by range of emotions I got, I mean – this book made me cry during sex and only a handful of authors have done that to me. The sex was dirty but it was sensual and yeah, pretty fother mucking sweet with these two.
Ooh Boy. The ginger is on a ramble. So anyway. Raja and David have a sexy moment. Raja then learns exactly who David is and his relation to Hunter and all that MC/Chapter mess but these boys, they can’t stay away from one another and I loved how they kept coming back for more.
I have a think with books and music. I had the Yeah, Yeah, Yeah’s “It’s Blitz!” on repeat reading this and each time “Hysteric” came on with Karen O’s beautiful voice singing the lyrics, “Flow Sweetly, Hang Heavy. You suddenly complete me…” I was a mess and fully connected to the music and the story I was lost in.
Goodness. How do I even begin to explain this book and have it make sense? When religion and self-hate is involved I can’t help but find a common thread. Growing up Catholic I know the guilt that can be forced on you and while I am currently without religion, the imposed Catholic guilt resides in my subconscious and likes to rear its ugly head from time to time. I can’t imagine being David and trying to find his way through wanting to be his true self while coming to terms with his sexuality and wants/needs. It was adorable that Raja decided to be the one to teach David all he needs to know about being gay but in turn, David teaches Raja so much about himself and what he is capable of.
I loved that David was able to be himself with Raja, that he let go and while he may have questioned if what he was doing was right by the church, he knew in his heart and soul that anything with Raja could never be wrong. Oh and David, you are such a good and dirty boy. Such. A. Good. And. Dirty. Boy. Mmm hmm…
The sex in this book was amazing. I mentioned it was hella dirty but along with the dirty was this outstanding level of respect. The moment when Raja explains to David that dirty talk is just that and to never let someone call you names and mean it was amazing. These two were stunning as they found their way to a common ground one wouldn’t expect from the surface and yet the layers they pull back on one another to reveal the deeper connection left me breathless.
Am I even saying anything? I have no idea. I stayed up way passed my bedtime reading this last night because I couldn’t put it down. I had to know how the MC would react, how Hunter would react, how David’s parents and the evil freaking priest would react and how it all would come together with Raja and David falling for one another.
Gah. Raja and who he is. Can I just mention that I loved his heritage and David’s passion for Bollywood movies? When we get Raja’s name I may have let out a sound that made my dogs bark in the dead of night because it was all too much for me, in a good way of course. This book was everything I could have hoped for and even more. It surpassed all expectations I had and gave me the most wonderful story. And that epilogue… shut up with the song played. I may have a crush on the authors for that because it was just so out of the blue and so damn perfect.
Heart Ripper did just that to me, it ripped my heart out in the best way while softly placing it back in my chest with respect. The romance of David and Raja was amazing and has fueled my need to go back and read the other books in this series and while I have been warned, the other books get darker I am sure the Merikan’s will pull me through with reverence.