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When vacationing Denver architect Roger Mackie rolls into a quaint old trading post in Montana’s Bitterroot Mountain Range to gas up his car, it’s the start of a life-changing journey. Lean, handsome Chippewa Johnny Two-Guns is looking for a ride. He’s on a mission to recover some clan treasures. Roger is immediately smitten and drives Johnny all the way to Arizona.
Although the two successfully build a friendship, Roger is unable to initiate the intimacy they both seem to desire. A second visit gives Roger another chance to draw Johnny out of his shell. The payoff is spectacular, leading to a week of sex and discovery, during which Johnny’s innocent enthusiasm shows Roger a new side of love between men. But trouble is on the horizon for the new couple, as fate seems set against them. And what does the sudden appearance of sexy young architect Brad Beaver portend for the future?
It’s a day later that I’m writing this review, and I’m still ragey mad and I decided to rate this. See yesterday on March 8th when I finished the book I was so freaking mad at the ending. I wanted to DNF this book at the 55% mark. I didn’t get it. I still don’t understand why the author decided to do the unthinkable in my eyes. I was just at the point where I was getting fine with the first person narration. I don’t like that either, but I managed it because of the story coming together.
We start off with Roger on a mind life crisis? I’m still not sure his reasons why he was on vacation, but in his mass travelling over the western states he comes upon a Trader station and meets Johnny Two-Guns. Now before they even meet Roger is sucked into a repressed memory. Now his reactions to this memory is enough to make me upset, but I’m not allowed to tell people what to feel. I’m not allowed to say one thing, when it didn’t happen to me. Let’s be clear Roger was raped. The notion in his mind that he could have thrown Hank off, or that he was that invested in their friendship was total bullcrap to me. Yet, I’m never going to disparage a victim by telling them something else. I’m not a trauma specialist so these are my personal thoughts. I’m still comprehending how the repressed memory came out by seeing quiet, stoic, Johnny Two-Guns, but it is what it is. For some reason good ole Roger agrees to let Johnny ride with him to a certain point. Now 20-year-old Johnny is a person who is hard to talk to. These two guys become friends, and they go through a wide variety of discussions. They spend this short amount of time together that’s so bigger in the grand scheme of things when it comes to them. I don’t have the words to describe Johnny fully, but that man was so endearing when it came to Roger. Maybe being with Johnny made Roger a happier person, and he fell in love quickly. I truly loved the discussion that Roger was willing to share with Johnny regarding his sexuality.
Then we see they might get a beautiful happily ever after but it’s only at the 50% mark for the book to be having some of its profound moments by then. Well then the author decides to shit all over us. That’s how I feel. It’s what happens. I don’t get it, and it’s not about replacing Johnny, but I never and will never take to Brad Beaver. If I thought Roger and Johnny were a little different together, I never saw the connection between Brad & Roger. Aside from Johnny & Roger being Native American. I thought it was a joke up until the end. I still don’t know, and this is why I considered not rating the story. I didn’t like it. Maybe I am supposed to get second chance love, second chance friendship. Maybe the author felt like Roger had to grow mentally to be there for someone else, but it’s not working with me. I’m not happy.