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Is five thousand miles far enough to say I love you?
Hudson Oliva loves stability. He was a throwaway teen before finding Kaleidoscope Gardens but has since thrived at the commune. When Jude Garrity moves in, life gets even better, but Hudson still craves more. He knows he has to be satisfied with their exclusive status being temporary and that Jude will eventually navigate his full sexual awakening with their other housemates.
Hudson has a journey of his own to make. It might only require going home to settle his grandmother’s estate, but he plans to use his time away to figure out how to temper his feelings for Jude and bury his jealousy once and for all. But when Jude joins him on his trip, Hudson falls even deeper in love, especially after Jude stands by his side when he finally confronts his mother for rejecting him.
However, it’s not all hearts and flowers while they travel. They’re over two thousand miles from home when Hudson learns a ruthless corporate farm threatens the commune they both love. In order to save their way of life, Hudson must ask his mother for help. And if he wants a chance at a stable future with Jude, he has to tell him the truth about his feelings, no matter if it ruins the harmony he’s tried so hard to preserve.
Once again, another good book from Posy Roberts! I really adore her writing style and the amount of emotions that she produces with her characters. This isn’t an ordinary series with just romance. Her stories are realistic fiction. They are for the obscenely normal folks. I didn’t know what to expect with this book. Having book Hudson and Jude go through their pass together was great. I think it was a good learning curve for both. It shows each one of them, why the other is the way he is.
Hudson’s emotional journey for hard for me to read. All these years later, his coming out sort to speak still hunts him. His relationship with his parents still enrage him. His father’s departure from his life leaves him feeling inadequate in his masculinity where he has to keep saying “that’s not what a man is”. For all the good things his Papi did for him, not accepting him during those years devastated and destroyed his confidence. He’s working through his feelings of inadequacy, vulnerability and jealousy. I really like Hudson on this journey. We can see the affect meeting his mother after 12 years is doing to him on page. They may have been some resolves with him and her. But I’m still so pissed at her. And yeah, maybe she’s a victim of her own. It was painful to read those parts, but I love Jude for being there.
Jude who has had his own issues. His issues with wanting sex and exploring it. He’s lived a hard life as well, has overcame it in a way. He’s 21 so he’s still growing. Seeing his parents about did me in. But I loved how his siblings rallied around him and the younger ones to do what’s right for each other. I cannot wait for the little brother to get a book.
**See what I did Posy, I put it out their in the universe :)**
Seeing Jude and Hudson together were beautiful. Both loving each other but not knowing how to say it to one another. I found those scenes very beautiful and at times felt like a voyeur for reading them. The unexpected for me was the Leo & Charlie point of views. Poor Leo, I think he felt like apart of him was missing instead of traveling. I get it, Hudson has been apart of his life for all these years and the first time he’s left for a period of time. I really like Charlie’s character and want his character study as well.
This book is about redemption, self-discovery, self-love and acceptance. At the end of the day, Hudson & Jude has something so powerful that they needed to know that they can overcome anything as long as they are working together. Life on the commune is going to be different now with the expansion, but I look forward to reading the next in the series. I really do love Posy’s words. I think this book was no different.