on Oct 13, 2013)
Pages: 274 pages
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Don’t look back. Don’t you ever look back…
Shy tattoo artist Ash has a troubled past. Years of neglect, drug abuse, and life on the streets have taken their toll, and sometimes it seems the deep, unspoken bond with his lover is the only balm for wounds he doesn’t quite understand.
Chicago paramedic Pete is warmth, love, and strength—things Ash never knew he could have, and never even knew he wanted until Pete showed him. But fate is a cruel, cruel mistress, and when nightmares collide with the present, their tentatively built world comes crashing down.
Traumatic events in Pete’s work life distance him from home, and he doesn’t realize until it’s too late that Ash has slipped away. Betrayal, secrets, and lies unfold, and when a devastating coincidence takes hold, Pete must fight with all he has to save the love of his life.
The whole time I read this book, I was waiting for the author rip the rug from under my feet. I knew it was coming, I just didn’t know when or how I would get that emotional jolt.
Chicago paramedic Pete needed a roommate and his friend Ellie had the perfect guy in mind. See Ellie knew a guy from when she was in rehab and Ash was a person who wouldn’t get in Pete’s way.
Ash was a tattoo artist, but he had a very troubled past. The long hours that kept Pete away from the apartment was great for Ash because he really didn’t want to talk or hang out. He just barely existed and that was all he could handle right now.
After Pete invited Ash to sleep in his room one night after Ash had a nightmare, Ash couldn’t sleep unless he was close to Pete or in Pete’s bed. Though they became lovers, Ash had great difficulty trusting and communicating, but Pete slowly drew Ash into his world. As soon as it seemed that everything was going okay for Pete and Ash, an attack on Pete opened some old wounds for Ash and then Ash began spiraling out of control again.
Pete has to decide if Ash can be saved or if it is better to let Ash go so Pete won’t get dragged down with him.
What made this had was that it was clear Ash had serious baggage, but we just didn’t know what exactly they were, so it was hard to pinpoint his triggers. But I was rooting for Ash and for Pete. I was also rooting for Ellie because I wanted her to be strong enough to fight her own battle with her parents. This story was dark but it definitely had a ray of sunshine and that is enough to keep me cheering for Ash and Pete to make it through the storm.