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What Matters by Gracie Leigh
Release Date: May 2nd, 2017
Pages: 192 • Format: eARC
Published By: Fox Love Press
“It’s a good fear, Sam. I’d miss it if it wasn’t there…”
Musical prodigy Eddie Dean gets everything she wants. The best violin, the best boyfriend, and a place at the best music school in London are hers until her father goes bankrupt. Once the financial facade comes tumbling down, Eddie’s broke and her boyfriend couldn’t care less.
The doorstep of Jimmy’s Café is the last place she expects to wash up.
Scrubbing dishes and serving fried breakfasts to pay her rent is as hellish as she imagined, and her new life is made worse by the distain of her boss’s sneering grandson. Sam Novak is arrogant, rude, and gorgeous, and if Eddie never sees him again, it will be too soon. Shame she can’t stop thinking about him. Dreaming about him. Craving him.
And then there’s his best friend Dylan.
Dylan is as light as Sam is dark, and Eddie wants him too. She can have him too—according to Sam—but when Sam reveals a vulnerability that could cost him his life, it’s time for Eddie to face the music. Does she still need to get everything she wants, or should she choose what matters?
I could not be more disappointed in this book. This author also writes under a different name in the m/m romance genre and in that she is one of my favorite authors. I was SO excited when I saw that she was writing a m/f romance. I expected great things. What I got was a book I barely finished.
The plot is in the blurb (obviously) and the first 15% or so of the book was pretty good. I liked Eddie (the heroine) at the beginning and it seemed like a great set up. The book went bad for me pretty early on because Sam (the “hero”) was an absolute, unmitigated asshole. He was dreadful to Eddie when they first began to work together at his family restaurant but I thought as he fell for her he would show her his tender side and start to be kind and loving to her. Nope. He continued to be rude and disrespectful to her throughout. He insults her every chance he gets. I hated him as much at the end of the book as I did at the beginning. Some examples of Sam talking to Eddie:
“I want you to piss off, but as that’s unlikely to happen, you can go round and fill up the sauce bottles.”
“You think I owe you a conversation, or some shit? Just because I fucked you the other night?”
“You want to feel special? Is that all this is, Eddie? You want the whole world to revolve around you?
“No! That’s not what I meant.”
“Great, ’cause I don’t actually give a shit what you meant.”
“How many times do you need telling before it sinks into your entitled brain?”
“You know what, Eddie? Fuck you.”
Soooo……..as you can tell, Sam’s a prince among men. I guess this is all a matter of perception. Some people may not have an issue with someone talking to them like this but it doesn’t work me at all. I don’t call it romance. I don’t call it a broody hero. I call it verbal
I mentioned that I liked Eddie at the beginning and I did. That didn’t last though. While she wasn’t as horrible as Sam was for me, she still wasn’t a very nice person. She treats the people around her poorly, she’s rude and disrespectful to Sam (two wrongs don’t make a right & all that) and she’s dreadful to her mother. Her mother, also not a nice person, is still her mother and I’m not a fan of telling her to “Get the fuck out of my apartment”.
This also contains my least favorite plot devise and that is “The Giant Misunderstanding That Could Have Been Avoided With Communication”. There’s a few instances of it here and both characters are immature and fly off the handle and refuse to speak to each other, say mean things, send mean texts, blah, blah, blah. I’m completely befuddled as to why it’s in this book. I know it’s common in a lot of m/f NA (which is why I avoid them) but I’ve never seen this author use this plot device so I was completely shocked to see it here.
The sex. Some readers will think this next complaint is petty but it really irked me. They’re together for the first time and he asks if she’s on the pill and she says “yes” so they don’t use a condom. They’ve just met and she’s been sleeping with another guy. This drives me insane. Yes, she won’t get pregnant but she or he could get any number of sexually transmitted diseases. Then there is this really odd threesome with Sam’s friend Dylan. It was hot, I’m not gonna lie, but it didn’t fit in the story. I don’t understand why it was there. It really served no point as far as the plot went. And…..for some reason Dylan had to wear a condom??? **best Scooby Doo confused shrug here** Also, the sex was super unrealistic. Eddie’s only had boring, bad sex with her ex before and has never had an orgasm. She’s also never given a blow job. So jump forward to the second or third time she’s had sex with Sam. She’s deep throating him (it mentions his dick hitting the back of her throat more than once) and then she’s doing both him and his best friend, deep throating them both and taking both of their dicks at once. Now I appreciate a girl who throws herself into things but I feel she really jumped ahead of the learning curve. I actually thought at this point that I had misunderstood and this wasn’t supposed to be a romance but was in fact an erotica story. And I was happy. But then sadly, this threesome ended, Dylan just weirdly disappeared from the book as fast as he’d shown up and we were back to the romance portion.
By the end of the book they were all “I’ll love you forever and ever”. I have ZERO idea how they got there. There was no relationship development, no scenes of them being tender with each other, no communication, no feelings whatsoever. This was a huge case of “telling” the reader rather than “showing” them.
It makes me sad to say this cuz I’m usually such fan girl for this author but I really disliked this. A lot.