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We started the Subs Club to make the kink community safer for subs. Except now the others are so busy chasing their happy endings, it’s like they’ve forgotten what Bill did to Hal and the fact that he got away with it. They used to think I was betraying Hal’s memory by hooking up with the owners of the club where he died. Now they don’t seem to care about any of it anymore.
Maybe I am sometimes angry with GK and Kel for giving Bill a second chance, but they’ve been mentoring me for a year now, and whatever else they’ve done, they make me feel incredibly safe. So I want to try something: I want to offer them my complete submission, 24/7. To serve the people who forgave Bill. That’s the way I want to hurt.
Except I’m starting to care about them in a way I never meant to—and I think they feel the same way. But after Hal, I don’t know if I want to be in love again. Because what I really need, more than anything, is to see Bill brought to justice. Even if I have to do it myself. Even if it means losing GK and Kel.
Unfortunately I wasn’t able to finish reading this. I’ve been grappling over with last few days on what to say. I decided against rating it, because it doesn’t seem fair. The writing itself was fine. I loved it, but the story and Gould not so much. Everything felt wrong to me. The relationship between Gould, Kel and Greg felt forced. I’m having a hard time explaining why and that’s frustrating in itself. A big part of the problem was reading the relationship from the middle. It wasn’t new it was already established and it didn’t seem sincere from Gould’s side to me. The entire time I was reading it he just seemed to be floating by looking for someone to grasp him and anchor him. That is what’s bothering me. Gould spent so much time in his head, I’m not certain who he really is. I know he’s grieving over Hal, but between those thoughts and the thoughts of Bill I don’t him. He seems so fade to black as a character. Easily forgotten. I’m going to be the one to say it, but I didn’t like the m/f/m dynamics. Not because of the female parts, it’s been they didn’t seem connected at all. It seemed forced alot. Another part of my issue was the tone of the story. This was the darkest book out of the story. Very depressing, and with the depression, and me not connecting with the story I just decided to bow out. It sucks because I’ve enjoyed it up to here. Learned a ton of new things and I do enjoy J.A Rock’s work but for me it wasn’t working at all.