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What could an undercover cop and a drug lord’s pet psychic have in common?
Brian Kerr has spent years hiding behind a facade of mental slowness. His brother and sister got all three of them off the streets and into a cushy life, under the protection of a dangerous criminal. But to keep that safety, Brian has to use his Finding talent to track down the boss’s enemies. Although he pretends not to know what he’s really doing, each Find takes its toll, and he’s trapped in a life he hates, losing touch with his true self.
Nick Rugo’s job is to protect and serve the people of Minneapolis as an undercover cop. He isn’t closeted, but he isn’t out at work, and there’s a wild, angry side to him that he’s managed to keep hidden until now. When he’s assigned to bring Brian’s boss to justice, he intends to use anything and anyone it takes to do that.
Nick initially sees Brian as a pawn to be played in his case, but he keeps getting glimpses of a different man behind the slow, simpleminded mask. As the two men get to know each other, it becomes clear they share secrets, some of which might get them both killed.
I have so many conflicted emotions on this book. It was a really good story, and that writing is the usual best from Kaje Harper. Some will read this and say it isn’t as romance-y as they would want it. I’m on the minority because I’m super glad that romance kinda played in the background of the story. After I finished reading it, I was unsure of my thoughts regarding the main character’s relationship. Brian Kerr is a special needs person, and it’s not clear by the end what he really suffers from. Dyslexia is a sure thing, but the other terms like Schziophernia, and Dissociative Identity Disorder is mentioned. Don’t get me wrong, people with mental illness should be able to love when, and whomever they want to. My thing was I felt like his entire life people have taken advantage of him, and the one person he opens up to takes advantage of him in my opinion. I’m not saying Nick did it to be malicious, but I was pissed that he took it there seeing as he was not being his truthful self that was needed.
Onto the story itself it was good. My kind of suspense and thriller with a little paranormal thrown into it. We start off with Nick fighting in a bar, Nick who has a mantra about himself earning his name. On the other hand, we have Nick the cop. Nick rides that fine line between his morals as a person and a cop. Reading this book, I’m kinda surprised on his morals as a cop. It doesn’t seem like he cares about anyone else. In the next book, I hope we get to see more of his self and his past. Hopefully things work out. I liked the characters in the story alot. These are people that I can definitely see on screen as well. The characters are so real, and gritty. Damon and Lori are bad ass! Say what you want, and they might not care about other people but they are family and they stick together. I honestly understand why they are the way they are. Their childhood was screwed up. They survived by using what they got. As much as I despised some of Damon’s actions in the story, I love him for never giving up on his brother. Loved seeing the drama surrounding some of the characters. I really enjoyed how the story came to. I was so freaking nervous about Nick & Brian. It literally was a point in the story where I cried at 72% and I don’t know if that was the author’s expectations, but those scenes all the way to the end had me in tears. I cried off and on, until the very last page.
I was so conflicted that I had to email Kaje Harper and ask her certain questions! She was a doll for answering them. I really love her work, and I always say this but she is a realistic writer in my opinion. Everything happening in this story you can definitely picturing it happening in a suburb somewhere, and these characters are somewhere out there in the world. Don’t know what’s in store for book two, but I’m ecstatic for what’s more to come.